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| Guess which one of these was Neil Buchanan-inspired... |
2.5st Reward:As you know from my goals set a while back, I'm due a reward, which I'm going to save up, partly because I have no money, partly because I don't really want/need the listed items.
An angry bird? Seriously? Get a grip, woman. The bag..well my bag still has a hole in the bottom of it, and the lining means I find lipsticks and pens sporadically which I won't have seen for 6 months, but otherwise, it's usable so I can hold off for a bit. Plus my shoes are breaking, maybe it'd be better to pick up some new ones instead of a bag..
In the meantime, I've been reading up a lot on weight loss etc and drawing graphs and targets etc to remind myself why I'm doing this, of which will be pictured at the end of this post.. I've also written up a kind of "I WILL..." mantra to keep me going, which might seem pretty sad when read. Not sure if I'll upload it just yet, if at all, due to the fact that some are just personal or just laughable to outsiders...watch this space anyway, it might appear here. If I can condone any other writing I publish online, I should be able to condone that. If you're trying to lose weight yourself, make an "I will" mantra, with the results you want to get from your body and how it works!!
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| Boring Corner, My room, Posadas, Cordoba, Earth, The Universe |
I also, to my disgust, wasted an entire evening the other night drawing a christmas tree to record my progress til Christmas on. I want to lose 26lb between now and Christmas. I don't know yet if I'm going home for christmas so I'm obviously SCARED by the eat-til-you-puke marathon, but if I'm, in total, 62.5lb down, I'll have less to fear. But how it works if you colour in the baubles for each pound you lose. At the moment it has 25 but I'm looking for a picture of some thinspiration to put on the top and then to add wings onto the person and a big 26. It'll live on my wall and perhaps a copy will be made for my planner
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| N-Bukes would be fucking pleased about this. If it had been actually created by someone of the audience age. |
Well, RIP Weetabix, it was fun while it lasted. You will always be in our hearts, if not our metabolism. I've found some all bran fruit and fibre in the supermarket near to me to keep me going for now. Found weetabix minis with chocolate as well today but the c-word (not THAT c-word) is making me hold back a bit.
That';s it. I'll just have to make some manifesto that declares that no one crosses this spanish threshold unless they are carrying weetabix. Options hot chocolate too, which I'm nervous about running out of.
WANTED
HAVE YOU SEEN THIS WEETABIX?
What else?
I tried artichokes for the first time ever this week, they tasted like bum.
Found some as-healthy-as-can-be spanish recipes - one for salmorejo which is like gazpacho, but it has eggs and serrano ham in/on it. Thankfully I don't like the latter so I can skimp on that, since I'm still off ham. The other is salpicón, which is a fresh fish/seafood salad, which is gorgeous. The one I tried had crab and prawns in it, and I just adore crabmeat. Now that I've found fresh fish stores (just today, actually!) and once I have enough money, I will throw myself at the fishmongers of the town. Boxed octopus with "kraken" written on the back of it just seems incredibly unappealing.
Bought treat food for the first time since mid-August, due to reading about giving yourself a 100kcal treat at the end of each day if you've stuck to your plan. I've eaten carefully but they've remained untouched. For fear that when they're opened, I'll launch myself at them. Speaking of fear, I'm now incorporating carbs into my diet which is...thus far, not working, I still wish they weren't there and I still feel like I'm not getting enough fibre from them. Fibre's been so rubbish this week despite the fact I've incorporated wholewheat carbs and am keeping with the regular fruit and veg, so I know something must change next week, *I am open to suggestions. I will send the required deets if requested*
I get about 1.5-2.5l water into the system in a day. All ice cold because, as predicted, all spanish fridges are set to being AS COLD AS POSS without being a freezer. I picked an egg out of the fridge earlier and the bottom of it had frozen to the box. Yay for my metabolism, anyway! (the eggs shouldn't be in the fridge, but pretty much everything is til my appetite's back to normal, can't afford to waste food. Have had to freeze various foodstuffs because of my appetite becoming weird so that it'll keep fresh. Had bought a ton of fresh fruit and vegetables but the appetite just wasn't there)
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| Probably the first productive goal I've set eye on yet. |
I'd be lying to say it's all been easy recently, I think you can tell from the way this post is far more boring than usual. Can't go into the ins and outs because people will get the wrong idea, I will when I feel less ill.
Oh also it seems that cake in the staffroom is basically a regular thing. Whenever anyone has a birthday, they bring in cakes. And biscuits. And all sorts. I will try a tiny (AND I MEAN TINY) bit just because the whole point of the year abroad is you don't turn down new stuff, and because I'm generally rude. People are still trying to feed me despite the fact I am a carload bigger than all of them!
Trying my best not to eat out (...) but I'm going to Cordoba tomorrow evening/night/morning for dinner and drinks. My main issue is I am tempted by alcohol. Not for the sake of alcohol itself but because I'm nervous about this first night out in Spain, for a couple of years, and not being smashed for it, not even slightly inebriated. I don't quite know how I'm going to get around that - the easiest thing may be to limit myself to two drinks, the easiest thing may be to keep going with the no alcohol stuff. If I were to maintain at this point, it'd devastate me. Especially now that I have that 26pounds to be thinking of in the meantime!
Speaking of goals, and Cordoba actually as well - as some of you might remember, my 2st goal was to get a charm, and then buy charms for each 5lbs I lost. At the time of purchase, my last proper weigh-in was 34lbs, so I limited myself to 6. These were all 3euros each, which is extremely good. Unfortunately the bracelet I'd already bought wasn't cheap enough, but I quite like them being on display in my living room instead as a reminder. I'll get the next charms at the end of each 6 weeks or something, month even perhaps - I think it's better that way. It seems quite apt that they're actually Spanish because my last weigh-in in Britain was my 2st goal, which was the bracelet itself. For me, it feels like a new chapter in the journey and that this has commemorated my move, and the 2st loss.
Here they are - I didn't really pick all of them out myself, but they're quite pretty and delicate close up (not in this photo because I've forgotten my camera wire and my blackberry has a SHITE camera, if you've not already clocked that):
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| All traditionally Spanish from a little Spanish shop (didn't catch the name), located near the Mosque-Cathedral in Cordoba First Row L to R: Bull head, Gitano, Spanish Hat, Horseshoe with 13 Bottom Row L to R: Flamenco Dancer, Castanets, Bracelet |
On a lighter note, I think I'm now the weight I was before I went to uni. Goodbye margarita-formal-wine-jagerbomb-dirty-janes-falafel-bullshit-chowing weight. What a disgusting amount of weight to have put on over 4 years!!!!!!!!!!
Please wish me luck, I feel like I might need it to see the next ten days out! And I hope you all have wonderful weekends
